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Wednesday, April 23rd, 2008
9:44 pm	Baby's Here!!! Announcing... Welcome to the world Scarlett Rose Born 9-4-08 Weighing 3.9kgs (approx 8.6lbs), 56.5cms long Seriously beautiful! I've been in hospital for nigh on 2 weeks now... let's just say birth didn't go as planned, I'll have a birth story to follow, but it's hard for me to think about it now without getting upset.   It's a bit of a learning curve being home for the first time after all that time in hospital - the house looks like a bomb's gone off.  Anyway, she's asleep here with me at the moment - in my lap.  She's so beautiful, I'll get pics up soon.  Just thought I'd update... (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, April 1st, 2008
9:10 pm	Due Date! So, today I am officially due.  It is my 'due date', but nothing's happened/happening, not just yet.  Ah well, we'll see what the next few days bring! ;) (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, February 21st, 2008
7:51 pm	Just a very quick update: yes I do still exist!  I'm not great at remembering to post, but this is no secret! :) Baby-person is still on the inside.  I'm 34 weeks, which is hardcore.  In 6 weeks (if she doesn't turn up early) I'm going to have to be a responsible adult!  Baby is doing well though.  I've had a few setbacks.  I was so morning sick for a while I ended up with something called a "Mallory-Weiss" tear, basically getting so spewy I tore my oesophagus.  Sucked.  Then a few weeks ago I landed myself in hospital with what they suspect was viral gastro.  I was badly dehydrated and went into early labour - but was fluid resuscitated with about 9litres of saline/potassium etc, and labour was stopped.  Also bad was at the same time I spiked a really bad temperature, so baby-person went into a bit of distress.  We're both fine now. About a week ago I got to see her again on a repeat ultrasound.  One of the residents at the hospital decided I was measuring big.  Really big.  She put me at 4 weeks ahead judging by fundal height (although at this stage in the game, they don't adjust due dates).  Also doubt was cast on there being enough amniotic fluid volume, and so another ultrasound was booked.  So yay, new mama panic set in.  For the record I passed (maybe that's not really the right word) the gestational diabetes test, so that wasn't a factor.  I had the USS - amniotic volume was nice and normal.  Yes the baby is large - but not problematic large.  She was estimated to be 6lbs then (at 33 weeks) so she's a decent size.  I'm still at work (yuk) but thankfully I finish up on Sunday.  Looking forward to that!  We've just moved - so all my earthly possessions are in boxes around me.  I intended to do a fair bit of unpacking today, but an entire bag of cleaning products has gone missing and I'm not putting anything away until I've cleaned it properly.  More than that, after a wonderfully, mercifully mild summer here in BrisVegas, real heat has set in today.  I've discovered that this new apartment is an oven.  It's revolting, painful, sticky heat.  I'm not very happy about that.  Hotter again tomorrow, apparently. Joy. And that's about it for me!  I might hopefully start remembering to post a bit more after Sunday since work will be finished.  :) (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, October 8th, 2007
9:17 pm	Announcement... Hello! Long time no post! I'd just like to thank everyone for all the kind comments - I was going through a really rough patch for a while.  I can't exaggerate how much better life is at the moment. I'm happy - really happy for the first time in a long time.  Work is great, I'm with a wonderful man, and there's one other thing....  Come April next year, you can call me "Mum". I'm happy to announce I'm expecting my first baby, due date (get this) April 1st!  Makes me 14 weeks - 15 weeks on Wednesday.  I'm remaining positive, and not focusing on my previous history of miscarriage.  So far, all seems to be well.  I've got pretty shitty morning sickness, and a host of other pregnancy cliches, but I'm feeling pretty good.  More to come on all this, but I wanted to share the news. :) Thanks all for reading. ~~Rosie~~ Current Mood: chipper (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, February 3rd, 2006
6:56 pm	Update! Woo! Back from Europe! T'was amazing . . . utterly amazing! I'm so pleased I've travelled. I spent the first few weeks on a whirlwind trip of continental Europe (I'll list out the cities) - I've spent time now in Amsterdam, St Goar, Munich, Innisbruck, Venice, Rome (oooh yeah!), Florence, Lucern, and Paris. After which, I headed up to Norway to see my friend ('special' friend, can we all please read between certain lines?) and spend some time with him in Oslo. I'll put that time down as both amazing & beautiful; and disasterous. More will be explained at a later time. Theeeeeennn - LONDON! Was there for about a month at the end of my holiday - in with friends. Oh yeah - what a city! You London people out there are lucky . . . very lucky - it's still the most 'swinging' city in the world (sorry - Austin Powers moment there! And now I'm back home - back to face reality again! Actually, reality right now isn't all that bad! Begun a new job at Brisbane's major hospital (I have a funky security badge that says, wait for it: REGISTERED NURSE!!! Eeeeeeeeee - happy happy joy joy!), so all is pretty good. This is a quick and abridged update (do I have any other kind?), so more will be coming later. Including a rather interesting piece of news that will be shared later. So that's all for now! I'm safely back in the land of Oz (Oz-stralia, that is! :P), ready for action! ~Rosie~ @->--- Current Mood: chipper (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, November 20th, 2005
10:32 pm	2 more sleeps . . . Thaaat's right . . . two more sleeps until I board the plane for *Europe*!!!!!! Eeeeeeeee! Then six weeks of wonderful holiday time (cannot tell you how much I am looking forward to this!) That is all for now - I still have a *heap* of stuff to do before then! @->--- Current Mood: excited (Comment on this)
Monday, October 3rd, 2005
4:17 pm	Goin' Veggie . . . Again! Distressing incident . . . memory of a truckload of cute piggies - our car was travelling beside the truck on a main highway. I remember looking at the piggies - they were the really pink cute pigs, all with their little snouts sticking out the truck - they looked ever so happy. I was watching this truck with a smile - it then turned off the highway and it took a few moments for me to register what was going on. You see that highway turn-off lead straight to the city's main abittor . . . and that's exactly where these adorable piggies were ending up . . . This little memory from years ago popped into my head recently - as I more and more have been thinking about returning to vegetarianism. I love animals of all kinds - I really do. Lately I've been feeling worse and worse about eating meat - not just that I feel 'wrong' or 'bad' by eating animal meat (I actually do feel pretty bad and wrong to some degree) - but it's actually starting to make me feel really sick to have to put it to my lips and chew it up. So I am cutting meat and milk out of my diet (again!) for a while. So I just thought I would share . . . :P @->-- Current Mood: content Current Music: Television noises . . . (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, October 2nd, 2005
4:07 pm	Countdown until graduation! Mmmm, skinnycino . . . . mmmm - update! My goodness, where to begin? Actually, I've been embarrassingly boring lately - due to the fact I am only a few weeks out from graduating uni . . . for good! I'll actually be a REGISTERED NURSE! Can't rightly belive it - is all very exciting. Well, so long as I can get the next couple of assignments done - I just discovered I had miscalculated the date one of them is due, so now I have a very large assignment to start, research, write and reference in a day-and-a-half - probably less, since I am on prac so my tomorrow is pretty well written off. Ah well, it just wouldn't be me if I didn't leave every-bloody-thing til the last minute. I had a job offer already for next year (rather exciting) and I find out this week if another hospital is wanting me, plus an interview for the RBH this week, and a phone interview for a rural hospital near Airlie Beach in the next couple of weeks. Eep! Here's hoping . . . !!! I have holiday plans for the end of the year - EUROPE! At the moment, it all seems to be running to schedule, so keep some fingers crossed for me (:P) that things stay to plan and work out (I'm very very VERY excited about that one, by the way!). So that's me at the moment. Basically, I've been a bit up-and-down, but I'm getting by and hopefully a few things start falling into place - either way, it's really going pretty well. Ciao for now! @->--- Current Mood: chipper (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, August 14th, 2005
2:10 am	An apology . . . Perhaps some out there have noticed my prolonged absence from the Lj front . . . Goooood reasons, too. I will get into all of that in a later update - this update has a different reason. I want to apologise to those on my friends list for being such a shitty friend to them over the last while. I just disappeared - and I don't want to sound conceited - I know my presence isn't a be-all-and-end-all for most. . . but it doesn't really excuse the way I just shut this all out for so long - ESPECIALLY . . . *Lilith & Prez . . . CONGRATULATIONS!!! I have seen the photos - Dashiell is absolutely beautiful - although I haven't been around I have kept up with the pregnancy and finally birth progress - you must both be so proud. I'm so happy for you, you make such a wonderful family. ALSO . . . *BloodRose & Nachty . . . CONGRATULATIONS on your engagement - it is truly a wonderful thing that the two of you will be married - even though I am on the other side of the world and know you only through a computer screen - the way the two of you talk about one another is beautiful and inspiring - and it is plain to see that you were simply ment to be together . . .and will continue to be together forever. I wish you both the absolute best of luck although I just know the future will be so bright for you both. Also, Aaron - I am so happy for you that you have found your soulmate, Daneen - and that life has had such a turn for the better for you. Lovekills - I read your latest post - it sounds wonderful - I am especially happy for you that your life is in such a happy place right now, you are a wonderful person and you deserve all the love and light in the world. There are others, of course - I will get to all that and I will get to posting on my prolonged absence later . . .but as I said, I just wanted to say sorry. Thanks to all for reading, Rosie. @-'--- Current Mood: contemplative (7 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, February 16th, 2005
12:33 pm	So I've been quiet on the Lj front lately. Good reason too. I'm not one for senseless attention-whoring, and the people that know me here know that. But I'm going to write all this shit anyway. I have struggled with depression my whole life. In the last few years, I felt I had gotten a nice handle on the whole thing, and had been working very hard to keep it all inside, and to keep a tight-fitting lid on it. The lid is off. The last few months have been nothing short of hell. Pure hell. I've been so sad, that every day I question living. Breathing even seems like a painful and pointless exercise. And this is not getting better. It is getting worse, and will only continue to get worse. I just don't think I want to keep it up anymore. I act happy and normal - as much as I can. But i can't really do it anymore. I just don't want to. I don't want this life anymore. (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, October 1st, 2004
1:27 pm	*Whimper* Ooooooohhh. Wisdom teeth, people, wisdom teeth. I had them, ah, 'removed' yesterday ('removed': read: wrenched and crunched and ripped out of my jaw). Two of them came out. Not a happy camper today, folks! In summary : 'Multiple wisdom teeth extraction' is NOT as much fun as it sounds. @->--- (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, September 23rd, 2004
8:53 am	Awwww! Excuse me while I switch into super-geeky mode, but this is too darling! http://thecouriermail.com.au/extras/frodocam/default.htm It's Frodo & Freida - A pair of Peregrine Falcons that have nested in Brisbane. There's a webcam set up to watch them and their babies. Too cute! @->--- (Comment on this)
Wednesday, September 22nd, 2004
10:44 pm	Woosh! Che Guevara is Love. Wheee! Che! Yay! Ooohheerrrh - how long has it been since I have updated? Gosh, not much to show for it, though! The best news is that I have started painting again . . . I really really have - oils and everything! I'm very, oh so very happy with this! I am on a short break from uni at the moment - but unfortunetly the end of it is rushing up to greet me - meaning study for exams and assignments needs to happen. Ahhh, so that's about all from me. *Touch wood* - but I am really quite the happy kitten right now! Oooh - it was my birthday 2 days ago! More happy! Ciao for now! :) @->--- Current Mood: happy Current Music: Paul Simon - Renee & George (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, July 16th, 2004
11:04 pm	Fun fun fun Fuck it. I'm sick of this. I'm fucking *over* things never working out the way I want them to. This may sound like an attention whoring whinge-fest, and to some degree it is, but it's true - things just fuck up & go wrong for me. I have just ended ANOTHER relationship. Things got off to a great start, and ended up shitty, AGAIN. I know that it's only gone on for three months, but I really wanted things to go well this time. It NEVER fucking does. I'm too upset to write great detail. Will do it later. @->--- (6 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 13th, 2004
6:43 pm	Viva Frida! 13 - 7 - 2004 50 years since the death of Frida Kahlo. Viva Frida! @->--- (Comment on this)
Monday, July 5th, 2004
8:59 pm	Exams & Benzodiazapine . . . Oh, and NEW TATTOO!!!! Eeeehehehehehehehehe!!! NEW TATTOO! Oh the happy! I got a new tattoo! It's actually only tiny - it's a little heart on my arse. But I've wanted that little heart for so long! It's oh so very cute! It's also, in a way, an homage to My Little Ponies - the toys that gave me countless hours of joy & happiness as a tiny child! I'm so very pleased with it! My oh my oh my . . . . I have had some exams . . . of course I was throroughly underprepared for alllll of them. I postponed one of them, for which I should be studying now . . . the stress of that time was sickening, though - which explains the 'benzodiazapine' part of the title. My panic disorder, which was previously quashed, found it's way back to me. I had been studying till about 2am when I decided that was enough for the day - when I climbed into bed I couldn't stop thinking about how screwed I was - which progressed into crying & hyperventilation - & culminated in sobbing & collapsing on the kitchen floor. Bloody drama. Anyway, I have been working for the past 10 days straight. I'm trying not to be whingey about it, but I need a day or two off. I get Thursday off - but then have to work again for Friday, Saturday & Sunday. Bah, at least there'll be some money by the end of it. What else, what else? Still with the man I talked about last entry . . . still going! Bought new undies today. Cured the cat of his abscess. Yay for cat. Yay for undies. Yay for Rosie! :) I'm annoyed at the lack of artistic expression I am showing at the moment. Most annoyed. I feel guilty when I get out my sketch book, 'should be studying' I think to myself. Then I potter off & find something else to occupy me & don't study anyway. Maybe I'll learn, one day! ;) Fans of horror movies, or just creepy/scary movies and moments in general, should check out this site --> http://www.retrocrush.com/scary/ it lists the (in the opinion of the webmaster & those who read the site) the 100 scariest movie moments of all time. Darn, it's really, really REALLY a great list! :) That's enough from me, hopefully I'll get back to post more often! :) @->--- Current Mood: groggy Current Music: TV - Queer Eye for the Straight Guy (Comment on this)
Monday, May 24th, 2004
10:58 am	Rush! dark__rose Look out for the m HOLE Username: From Go-Quiz.com I have very little time at the moment, unfortunetly. I am on prac at Uni, and the last two weeks were my mental health nursing placement. Basically, this meant getting out of bed at 4.30am (it's winter, by the way!) to get myself out to Wacol. Bummer. This week should be better - it's my Medical - surgical placement, which is at a hospital only a stone's throw from my house. Huzzah! I have to be there soon, actually, and I am still sitting in my pajamas. Now, I'm not wanting to jinx myself here, but I'd just like to make mention of the fact I'm no longer "desperate and dateless" as it were. Hee hee, I have been seeing the sweetest guy for the past couple of weeks - *sigh* - I am so happy. He's wonderful, he's sweet, he tells me I'm beautiful. I'll stop blathering, but I just wanted to say it. I'm just so happy! That's all for now - I have exams in a couple of weeks - have I opened a book? Nooooooooo - of course not!!! :P Will give a longer update soon. @->--- Current Mood: happy Current Music: T.V. is in the background (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, April 28th, 2004
11:18 pm	When will I learn??? Stupid assignment. Due frickin' Friday and I am only starting it now (Wed night, 11.20pm). I need sleep. I am going to do my trusty "leave it all till the day before" routine. Fuuuuuuuuuck. When will I learn, I wonder?!?!?!? A full update of my activities of the past couple of weeks will come soon - however right now, well, I'm feeling just a wee bit stressed out ("wee bit" - read: mega-fucking-hugely-crappy-heaps). Please everyone 'scuse the profanity contained inside this update, too. But I need it. Really, I do! Woo! @->--- (Comment on this)
Monday, April 5th, 2004
6:07 pm	Blah . . . May I just say, FUCK this diet I'm on. I'm always hungry, I'm constantly cranky and I can't concentrate for shit. Why on earth am I doing this to myself? Is it in the vain hope I can attract a member of the opposite sex? Is it so I don't recoil in horror when I see a photo of myself? Is it so I can have the very vain pride of asking for a smaller dress size when I go to buy new clothes? Is it for health? Is it? To tell you the truth, I don't know. I guess I'd like to not think of myself as "chubby" anymore. I really don't know. I started it, and I'm going to see this one through. Really. I have an oral presentation for uni in 2 days - it is with another person, we are meeting tomorrow, so in the next couple of hours I have to write an entire fucking assignment. That I've had six weeks to do. I've been sitting at the computer all bloody day - but like I said, no concentration. Why do I do this to myself every time? Bah, maybe next time I'll learn . . . Boy, this has turned out to be a really pissy and whingy Lj update. Meh, whatcha gonna do, eh? ;) @->--- (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, March 25th, 2004
9:32 am	Yuuuuuck! Sooooo, the 3.2mm tapers are in - I went back to the shop where I bought them (they have a piercing studio up the back) & the piercer there put them in for me - just like that! They are so lovely at that shop! Aaaaanyway, they hurt a LOT going in - and now they are all gunky. Hence the 'yuck' as the title of the post. But they have loosened right up - I have to be careful as I find they often slip out part of the way, and occasionally all of the way. I luuuurve 'em, though! Even though they are tiny - but once these have cleared up I'll get the 4mm in - and then onwards and upwards from there! Huzzah! :) The kitten has been very vocal this morning - he's currently sitting in an old wicker basket . . . so cute (and no, I don't know why I have an old wicker basket in the house either!)!!! I'm very sleepy. Actually, I have no idea how I am to concentrate this arvo/evening at uni. I feel like climbing back into bed . . . that's not a bad idea, actually! Ah well, that's all from me for now! :) @->--- Current Mood: sleepy Current Music: Hunters & Collectors - Holy Grail (Comment on this)